Sad of myself

Sad of myself

I don’t understand what happiness is

And how to get it

I tried to make myself happy

By doing anything I want to do

Don’t care what other people say

They don’t know who I am

They can only judge me, say I am lazy girl, I am weak girl

Without understand what I feel

Sad of myself

I keep it in the deep of my heart

Never going to let them know

Like they who don’t want to know

I take myself out of the world

never let anyone else come to my life, again

I am tired can’t being myself

They demand me to do what they do

They always try me to become someone who they expecting

They did not try to understand what I feel

And now,

I am alone, no one beside me

Every day, every time, every second

I just look like zombie

Have no feeling, no target, no willing, hoping

I am dead soul

Walking in the dark of life

Happiness,

Guess what, I’ve tried everything to be with you

I got you but only for a moment

You leave me,

I try again, I got you, and again, you leave me

I wonder, why happiness not lasting

I lost in my way

I am alone, I am tired, I am lonely, I have no one (by Sari Edellwais)

My life 

Lonely life

Lonely mind

Lonely heart

Lonely sit

Lonely fun

Lonely work,

Lonely talk,

Lonely thoughts,

Lonely death,

Lonely walk,

Lonely run,

Lonely friend,

Lonely crying,

Lonely recess,

Lonely eat,

Lonely sick,

Lonely burning,

Lonely loneliness...

Lonely dies… (red colour: poem by Siawash Rustami)